God and I had a moment on Sunday. He spent the weekend allowing me to fall as low as emotionally possible and the moment my alarm went off on Sunday morning I was begging Him to meet me at church. I needed Him, I needed to be reminded of all that He is, of His love for me, I needed something I could grab hold of and look to when life seemed impossible.
He met me at church alright. It was like nothing I've ever really experienced before.
Looking back I realize that my "moment with God" on Sunday would never had been if I hadn't had such a difficult weekend, if my heart hadn't felt broken, if I hadn't reached the end of myself. So often I wonder why He lets me walk down certain paths, why hurt seems to come so unnecessarily, or why He would let life get so low. I recognize now that this weekend He allowed me to get so low, He was silent all weekend long, so that on Sunday morning when we sang in worship "Hallelujah, all I have is Christ. Hallelujah, Jesus is my life." I would feel His presence so strongly, I would recognize that nothing else in this life matters but Christ and I would sing at the top of my lungs, full of emotion, because My God is all I have and all I need.
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