Saturday, November 26, 2011

Ramblings...

This white chocolate peppermint hot chocolate is pretty darn good and it is helping to mask how pathetic I feel sitting here at Stone Creek Coffee - alone. I do it all the time, but for some reason being surrounded by chattery, young college students has me feeling a bit inferior. I should get over it. I’ll work on that. 
I’m trying to become a writer. You know, one of those people who is incredibly creative and has an amazing way of describing the most ridiculous things in the most beautiful ways. Perhaps that will never really be me, but sitting here typing away on my MacBook makes me feel a little more like a human being with value. It just took a while to get past the, “oh my gosh, I feel so old sitting here” feelings. I think I am getting over all of that now...well maybe. I’m back on the college students and I’m pretty sure I was going to get over that.
Let’s talk about relationships. I am slowly becoming an expert on relationships that end with no real reason. Through it all I believe I am learning an incredible lesson, one I want to pass along in someway to other young ladies. However, I’m not really sure how that can actually be done. For the time being, I’ll write about it because writing is what makes my poor lonely soul feel like it has a voice. It also make the loneliness feel like it has a purpose and the lessons I learn could not be learned in any other way. It is, however, slightly terrifying to put some of your most personal mistakes and lessons learned up on the internet for the world to read. Who am I kidding, no one really reads my blog, but what if someone did one day! Randomly an actual human being, maybe someone I even know, could stubble upon my silly little blog and shake their heads over my ridiculous ramblings on and on about things that more than likely make literally no sense at all. Oh my, I think I should begin reconsidering my decision on this one.