God & I had a moment....

God and I had a moment on Sunday. He spent the weekend allowing me to fall as low as emotionally possible and the moment my alarm went off on Sunday morning I was begging Him to meet me at church. I needed Him, I needed to be reminded of all that He is, of His love for me, I needed something I could grab hold of and look to when life seemed impossible.

He met me at church alright. It was like nothing I've ever really experienced before.

Looking back I realize that my "moment with God" on Sunday would never had been if I hadn't had such a difficult weekend, if my heart hadn't felt broken, if I hadn't reached the end of myself. So often I wonder why He lets me walk down certain paths, why hurt seems to come so unnecessarily, or why He would let life get so low. I recognize now that this weekend He allowed me to get so low, He was silent all weekend long, so that on Sunday morning when we sang in worship "Hallelujah, all I have is Christ. Hallelujah, Jesus is my life." I would feel His presence so strongly, I would recognize that nothing else in this life matters but Christ and I would sing at the top of my lungs, full of emotion, because My God is all I have and all I need.

Philippians 4:4-7

"Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say, Rejoice! Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand, do not e anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

This passage is amazing..."and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding (as in it's beyond what anyone could explain or make sense of!), will (not might, but will) guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." What comfort....do not be anxious, rejoice in the Lord (not just anything....but in HIM)!