There's an Anchor for my soul...

"There's a peace I've come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail. There's an Anchor for my soul, I can say, It is well..."

The lyrics to this song recently jumped out at me as I contemplated the reality that my heart will wander. I've always loved the song "Come Thou Fount" because there is a line in there that says "Prone to wander, Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it. Seal it for Thy courts above." Recently I have felt so aware of the reality that my heart WILL wander. I'd like to think I have it all together, I'll always make the right choices, do the right things, and honor the Lord always with my words, thoughts and actions. Truth is, I don't. Sometimes I really screw up.

When I say screw up, I mean screw up. Sorry if my language is offending you, but it's just the truth. I always seem to find myself at a place where I need to beg the Lord for His forgiveness. I know that I always have His forgiveness, but there are times when I feel my sin is too great. Or I have failed in the same area too many times, perhaps Jesus will tire of forgiving me and drawing me to Himself yet again.

I was at this place just a few weeks ago. My sin felt overwhelming. I had done what I promised myself and the Lord I would never do again - willingly, knowingly I walked right into the Enemy's trap for me. I felt ashamed.

Then I heard this song, over and over. Every time I turned the radio on, every time I turned my iPod on, it was there for me..."There's a PEACE I've come to know, though my heart and FLESH may fail. There's an Anchor for my soul...." Think about that - an anchor. What does an anchor do? It prevents a ship from drifting, going in a direction it shouldn't, being lost at sea. Oh my friends! Do you realize there is an Anchor for our souls!?! Though we fail over and over and over our Savior will NEVER allow us to be lost at sea. HE is our Anchor! What PEACE!

He planned it this way because He knows us, He knows that we will fail. He provided a way so that we can never be lost. He has given us the Holy Spirit who LIVES IN US and is continually drawing us to the Father!

What peace to know that I am never "too lost" for Jesus. He will never allow me to get to that point. Because HE is my Anchor! HE holds me fast, and because of this I CAN say "It is well!"

Such peace!

Recognize

I recognize that You have the power to change it all, to put an end to the waiting, to make all the uncertainty clear.

I recognize that the Holy Spirit dwells in me, and therefore, You also know exactly how I feel. There is no need to even express my emotion to You because You already know it. Not only do You know it, You feel it along with me.

You made me this way. You created me to love and feel deeply. It is at times my least favorite part of who I am, and yet I recognize that it is how You have created me.

I recognize that You have the power to change it all and I'll stop asking You to...

"God's purpose is not just to answer our prayers, but that through prayer we might come to discern His mind." Oswald Chambers

John 17:11

"And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world and I am coming to You. Holy Father, keep them in Your Name, which You have given me, that they may be one, even as We are one."

This life - every single experience is allowed by God and His purpose is that He and I be as ONE!

Nothing else matters.

NOTHING ELSE MATTERS!

Only that I be one with my Heavenly Father. My job really doesn't matter, my desire for a relationship - all of it fades in comparison to the importance of becoming one with the Father, to being filled with His love. One with Christ and one with the Father. It seems impossible, really. Yet, Jesus prayed this for me and it is recorded for me in John 17 so that I remember that Jesus' deepest desire for me was to know Him and His Father intimately! To be one.

This life means so little. I am but a vapor. If yelling it made it more clear, I would. Because all that I want is this - oneness with my Jesus!